Category: Personal

Carving a Goddess Shrine
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Carving a Goddess Shrine

In my path to psychological growth and personal development I have found several images that I think have captured the complexities, joys and challenges of my life as a woman.  In my research I’ve become mesmerized by all the sacred places built to venerate the Great Goddess in ancient cultures.  Her presence was so alive and vibrant and [...]

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From the Bottom of my Feet

It recently came to me the realization that although I love, love shoes, when it comes to dance, I prefer to not wear any.  For the last 5 years of my dancing career I have learned to dance without shoes.  I have been a strong follower of Modern Dance, Capoeira, Afro-Brazilian, and Afro-Cuban movement.  All of these [...]

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Mourning

Why is it so hard to mourn or allow someone else to mourn?  Do we even know what mourning means?  Most of us are familiar with the dictionary definition of the verb TO MOURN that is “to show the conventional or usual signs of sorrow over a person’s death,” but there is also another definition “to [...]

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My Soul Friends

As I decorate my apartment, I’m searching through my pictures looking for those moments I shared with the four people that have been part of my journey.  The four friends whose paths have crossed mine and who even across the distance keep being a tremendous inspiration. I met Viviana in my ESL class at Belmont [...]

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Choosing To Love Over Choosing To Control

I come from a generation in which spanking was and may still be normal. I understand that as a strategy that worked in the past. That’s what people knew. That’s was the way things were done. I was raised by my mother in Ecuador until I was 15 years old before I migrated to the [...]

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I Am Not Full of Shit After All… Part II

I guess letting go of the childhood training is not as easy as one might have wished. I still have some trouble setting boundaries and expressing my feelings, since it is difficult for me to speak up when I am feeling vulnerable. I do try to avoid conflict, but this time it is not because [...]

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When Did We Stop Crying?

I became the aunt of a beautiful, hairy baby boy on January 24, 2006.  Within the first week of knowing him he had already taught me something extremely valuable about basic human nature. Sometime when I held him, he was very calm, but as he would start crying I immediately gave him back to his mom because I knew [...]

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Looking in the Mirror

How many times can we actually say that we have truly looked at ourselves in the mirror?  None would be too scary to state, but there are many of us who go our entire lives without truly seeing ourselves. Ms bell hooks mentions in her Sisters of the Yam book that we need to look [...]

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Reflecting on “Rocking” Past Lives

Among my dance creations, meditation practices and karmic astrology readings, I came to the conclusion that I was a musician in a past live.  I can see myself wearing a black tuxedo, warming up my fingers and caressing my instrument very tenderly.  I see myself sitting across my piano.  I sense so clearly my affective obsession.  My problem [...]

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Barbie Didn’t Get The Rockers

When I was 8 years old, I got my second Barbie.  My dad had sent her to me from the United States. I didn’t really understand a word of English then, but I was mesmerized by the booklet that came in her box.  It showed Barbie with the rest of her “gang.”  The entire collection was called “Barbie and the [...]

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